not knowing or what does knowing feel like
by TAITAI

can we
sit together
feel the unknown
together

and not pretend
enduring is the answer
discipline is the status quo
and how there is only one way
upwards to your lonely mountain peering down
shouting down
a couple shiny pellets down to lure them

up

from my mountain i avalanche down
noticing the ways i starved her/it/them
destroying and confusing
ripping the adhesive from her identifications
noticing when it was enough
many moons ago

i love you
even when you don't know and
and
and
are here